it becomes less about the argument and more about the fact that youre having one, right? caring hurts, scuffles hurt and feeling vulnerable is intensely embarassing. when your first and immediate instinct is to run away, how do you not listen to that? once you open the door, even if its just a crack, to let someone in, you allow them to effect your mood in a way that is so diabilitating. sometimes its hard not to really miss just being alone.