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taylor (swift - yes, that one) and i have similar ideas on the word fearless. we also agree on how to handle love, ex boyfriends, and no good crushes. after spending time with someone whose ways of dealing are so different from mine, its nice to feel my own sense of normal again. its not okay to dwell in unhealthy situations, and i hope im not unknowingly stewing in one. guess we'll see.

"The album is called "FEARLESS." To me, "FEARLESS" is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, FEARLESS is having fears. FEARLESS is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, FEARLESS is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. FEARLESS is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. FEARLESS is walking into your freshmen year of high school at fifteen. FEARLESS is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's FEARLESS to have faith that someday things will change. FEARLESS is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's FEARLESS to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, I think it's FEARLESS to stop believing them. It's FEARLESS to say "you're NOT sorry", and walk away. I think loving something despite what people think is FEARLESS. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is FEARLESS. Letting go is FEARLESS. Then, moving on and being alright...That's FEARLESS too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charmings and happily ever after. That's why I write these songs. Because I think love is FEARLESS. Love, T."

ps- bills are annoying.
ps#2- its funny how some days i dont care at all, and others i feel like i cant breathe. it makes me wonder if no matter what happens in my life, i'll always just feel alone.